Letting Go
...of the need to be seen...of being....of being special
I don’t know why, but as I read Slavoj Žižek today, I started thinking about what I had to say today to the Key West Noon Group which happens to be one of the best AA groups on Zoom these days.
Of myself, I am nothing…
That’s the way.
By practicing being Nobody - and Nothing Special - another Bozo on the Bus, I transcend the quotidian and move to another vantage point.
I almost wrote “rise” but that’s giving an impression of being “above it all” which I am not. I am no different from any other iteration of the species of traumatized primate that dominates this planet.
I often write and cite other things, but today, I want to step back and survey the wreckage I leave in my wake. For the past 63 years, I’ve been here. For the past 43, I’ve been aware that I am something special - in that I know that I am nothing special. I know that everything can be taken from a person for stepping over the line. I stepped over that line on the pier of Kingsmill Marina on the Friday before Labor Day 1983.
That was the end of the summer of Andropov and Reagan shadow-boxing the apocalypse - very nearly coming to a moment in which most of us were aware that we could be vaporized at any moment. On November 20, we were subjected to “The Day After” which showed us an image of how it would be. Somehow, that made an impression on our leaders and they pulled back from the brink.
I don’t know but believe that it could be that this Zeitgeist is what gave me an awakening; a sense of mission and purpose in life. So, for the past 43 years, I’ve been doing a kind of dance with my own demons. I’ve come to the awareness that we are all simply manifestations of the One.
So, what of it? What shall we do with our awareness? I continue working here on Harrowings but I’m also practicing letting go. In the end, we let go of everything anyway.
What do you think? Let me here from you.
Onward!
These are my thoughts, my beliefs. Everyone is special, a unique manifestation of the One. Everyone has a mission and purpose in life, things and themes our soul wants to explore in order to become an even more expanded version of itself. We have free will, so we can ignore any calling from within. What often happens then is that some crisis wakes us up and we CHOOSE to change course. Or not.
Yes, our bodies can be vaporized any moment. Our souls cannot. This removes fear from the equation to a large degree. Annihilation is an illusion.
What to do with our awareness, you asked? What we feel led to do, what our passion and love, our inspiration and excitement suggests. Dancing with our demons can be very educative. Practicing letting go can be helpful too. Playing is also a possibility. Whatever. Nu rush, eternity is ours.
We learn, we evolve, no matter what, so we can relax a bit and enjoy the ride. This is an advice from my Higher Self, that I am learning to follow. It makes laughter a closer companion than ever before. I believe it's useful to look at what is going on outside ourselves primarily as an educational drama. When/if in doubt I remind myself of this quote, which summarizes the famous document "A Course in Miracles": "Nothing real can be threatened, Nothing unreal exists". Love, Maria
I have a weird weekly ritual of slinging The I-Ching and the hexagram I’m contemplating this week is:
Primary: Hexagram 38 — Opposition (Kui)
• Changing to: Hexagram 23 — Splitting Apart (Po)
• Theme: Differentiation → Non-intervention → Structural truth
Which, essentially means (to me) is:
No heroics. No forcing coherence.
Protect the mountain. Let what’s unsupported fall.
Do more by taking less.
You are circling the same idea with this post. Great message for Your Birthday…I hope you’re having a superlative day and the next spin around the unstable mass of burning gas finds you healthy, confident, content and filled with good food, great music, and a shit-ton of Love!